Another year gone by implies parts of me gone by too. Wherein I changed, and maybe even attempted to grow up a little. School ended and I turned eighteen. Parts of me accepted the responsibility of being my own person. I accepted that even though a big part of me just wanted to remain a kid, I needed to grow up. Time calls for it and I guess you don't have a choice. But the thing is that even though it asks for maturity, I'm still that girl that in an empty house plays music and dances around, or stares at the sky hoping for rain, or keeps watching the flames of a fire and observes form.
I graduated. That day was one of mixed emotions. While it was sad of all of us going our own ways, it was also the end of false pretenses. Boards went by, and 4 months of freedom went by. The time that would never return. And for months after that we would sit around reminiscing about our school days like we graduated forever ago.
Today I received a phone call from a junior friend of mine and she was telling me about her plans and countdown for graduation, and it hit me that it's been a year almost. The running around for entrance tests, worrying how one was going to manage the design school criteria whilst being able to pass ones boards at a parental presentable aggregate and one acceptable to oneself.
January comes in. Cold winds blow and fog fills the Delhi skies. And the only thing I can dread come Monday morning is not the prospect of college work starting, but it's getting out of the bed every morning at 7 am and giving up that warm, warm bed.
Thinking of everything that 2009 was, I wonder how things will grow in 2010. I hate the way it sounds. And more than anything I hate saying it. But hopefully it won't irk me as much as these months run on by. I want to grow up a little more, understand some things that I couldn't. I've already had some realizations in these 9 days. I'm changing and I can feel it more than ever right now.
So here's a goodbye to an epic year. A year of experiences- ends and beginnings, a year of leave, a year of discovering a little more, a year of making 'adult' decisions, a year of deciding life futures, a year that seemed to linger on forever and yet flew by so fast I can't even remember that it happened sometimes.
And here's to 2010, a year to have more experiences that can mold and shape, a year that should bring everyone joy and happiness. A year to have enough events that when one sits down to reminisce on 31st December, 2010, so many things that give you a rush of excitement or so many thoughts that fight it out to be the prominant one in your mind.
And here's to life, may it carry on in full swing, unknowingly...
Goodbye 2009. Happy 2010.
